Missing My True Love...

Keep writing they say, its the only way you will ever be able to start anything... Even if you write a million words on piece of  paper that mean nothing, just keep writing...

Well guess what, I have tried it over and over again hoping to gain some type of energy from it and the only energy I received was the negative energy that came out of me for wasting my damn time writing nothing on a piece of paper. 

All I want to do is write again, I want to be able to sit down and lose myself in my own words... 

Go to a place where reality doesn't matter and my peace of mind reigns...

Gain excitement from what will come next...

Yet all I can do is yern for that feeling because writing has seemed to become a thing in my past, something that has faded away with the times and is lost in the dark...

One day I will find my true love again and we will be reunited...

But until then I will dream of the day...

M.S.P

Misunderstanding.... Seperation.... Pain....

What do I do when my heart screams yes and my mind screams FiiX IT....

Its like nothing will ever seem to get better...

 It almost seems as though I'm sinking into a pool of quick sand

And instead of being calm enough to figure out a way to be free...

I wigg out and die!!!!

Who is to say that there is is no solution?...

BUT...

Who is to say that there IS?...

Life is full of surprises and struggle...

This I know ...

Yet...

I can never seem to fit the pieces where they belong!!!!

Love's Pain

Hurt and Abused
Lost and Confused
What to do... What to say
I have all of me to lose

He hears my cries and
He dries my eyes
But does he realize that
Inside I still die

Heart whimpering
Day by Day
Never again will
I know love's pain...

Do I let go and fall
Unitl my end or
Hold on for life
And fear you
Again!!!

Forbbiden Love

You close your eyes

A silent cry releases itself from within

Untamed & uncontrolled you begin to ball

Eyes wide shut at the sight of my bare back

Words lynched by the vocal chords of a heart shattered

Heart beating to the rythm of silence

An eire nothingness finds comfort in your soul

Bleeding eyes now peircing me with distain

Hunger at its peak follows in a rage

Shards of clothing released into the darkness

Cuts, scrapes & gashes fill my helpless corps

It midnight... The moon glows

MUTE!!

Not so much...

Moans of seduction & lust

Flashes of what is not yet, But what really is...

That night we made LOVE!!

Oh yeah and it was forbbiden.

The VaMpTrEsS & The WeReWoLf

Now thats love Everlasting!!!!

Zakiya

Moochin Ass N.gga Pt.1

How r u supposed to be a sexy ass grown man with a college degree, livin with ur mother and moochin off of even ur 11 yr old cousin... You wanna be in a serious relationship with nothing to offer not to mention the number of bitches on ur wall and ur own tally... Letting others take the fall for ur BULLSHIT you have absolutely no remorse with not even the slightest bit of concern... Wondering why bitches aren't callin n begging you for more mot stoppin to realize that maybe the SEX isn't as good as you thought it was...

Dangerous Lovers

Searchin Pt.1

I wonder why its so hard to find a "boo" these days...
A gurl who is down for whatever...
A bitch who is a freak but don't look like something I stepped on...
A woman who knows how to treat her lover knowin that I have a significant other...

Zakiya

Vampire Kisses

Lustful whispers in midnight dreams, Upon satin bed under moonlight gleam, Restless figures begun to undress, Fingertips and torsos meet to caress, Mouths now merging, oh so bittersweet, Gasps of pain as teeth and tongues meet, Canines sinking into cherry soft flesh, Saliva mingles with blood so fresh, Fingernails scraping across tingling skin, Pleasure grows from carnal sins, Breathing heavy as heart rate grows, Agonising bliss as juices flow. Sharpened blades making bloody gashes, Heart beating peaks, each body lashes, Thrusting, shaking, all through the night, Bathed in sweat and blood and cool moonlight,